THANK GOD FOR SKYPE. when you get to SEE someone for the first time in months.. as opposed to only hearing their voice….. it’s just the best thing ever.
why is there always so much distance in my life. what the hell. why does it have to be like eveyone… has to be miles and states and countries and oceans away…..!!!!!! always. damn, give me a break :(
tell me how i’ve gotten myself through this exact same thing with so many other people but i am struggling more than ever now… with YOU.
sunday’s flight from new york to italy got delayed because of storms… so we got one extra night together… which made me really happy. but he’s gone now. see you in another 8 months boy.
all i keep thinking about is next week. is doesn’t feel real that he will actually be here. and we will get to talk in person. and hug. and cuddle. and do stuff like drive & eat together, be in the same time zone.. the thing i am looking forward to most is one long huge hug. i might not let go.
last night i had to say bye to my best friend, who was home on leave for a couple weeks… gone back to california now. i was so sad i just gave him a hug and layed in bed and cried basically until i fall asleep. then my other friend left for cali too.. just an hour ago so i had to say bye again. i have the hardest time with it.. knowing i love the time spent with people i care about then realizing that it’s just a short visit. then i don’t see them again for another 5 or 6 months.. only 2 times a year. i can’t even explain the emptiness i have when they aren’t here.
i’ll never forget this moment with my tomasy the other night. he came home but he was really drunk and really sad about something that happened. he had his marine uniform on. walked in, took it all off and just hopped in bed with me and cuddled me telling me “leanna i don’t know what i would do without you.. you’re my best friend” over and over again until we fell asleep. it wasn’t a romantic cuddle.. he is like a little brother to me.. means the world to me, my bestie. it was a comfort cuddle. i think he just needed something or someone to hold, thats okay. eventually he started snoring so i got up and slept on the couch :) but i miss him always being around more than anything.
